- John Markowski
A Photo a Day - Day 28
I didn't fall asleep until close to 3:45 this morning. I'd love to tell you it's an anomaly, but it's not. Most nights I doze off close to 11:30 or 12:00 only to jolt awake minutes later. I'm sure it's the sleep apnea and yes, I need to do something about it. The CPAP machine isn't cutting it but that's a story for another day.
I've always been a light sleeper, easy to wake and hyper aware in the middle of the night. That worked tending to little kids or tending to falling Christmas trees or tending to unexpected doorbell rings (also a story for another day). But I'm useless in the morning. Can't talk, can't think and can't really walk. All you're getting is a head nod.
But I digress. I'm rambling. Back to last night/early this morning ...
Yes, once again, apnea prevented me from tapping into the REM cycle but something else got in the way.
Kids, don't watch The Night Stalker on Netflix before going to sleep. Cause you won't.
Those f'n cheekbones. They haunted me. I knew the name Richard Ramirez before binging all four episodes but now I know too much. Evil incarnate with the looks to match.
Those f'n cheekbones.
I wasn't terrified as the morning hours rolled on and weird noises upped in intensity throughout the house. I didn't fear a break in. The problem was, I couldn't stop analyzing.
What makes a serial killer?
Why do some break the chain of abuse while others succumb? Ramirez apparently had a brutal upbringing.
Why do I continue to inhale all things serial killer? Am I trying to come to grips with evil or do I like how it disturbs me?
This documentary was brutal. They didn't hold back in describing the crimes and didn't censor the crime scene photos. Surviving victims were interviewed and they spoke openly about their suffering. I was riveted. I couldn't look away even as my stomach sunk and knew the safety of The Office was only a few easy clicks away.
Between The Night Stalker and The Golden State Killer, I think I'm serial killer sated for the time being.
Although there is the next book ...